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Parenting: The Challenging of Letting Go (spoken word poetry)

Lech l’cha! Get moving.
Your future is ahead.
Become your destiny.
Get going.”
(“Leave us behind,” it seems,
Remained unsaid.)

Torah teaches that Abram’s father Terah died before
His son went forth from Haran,
The father’s new home (Gen. 11:31).
Abram’s mother (named Amatlai, says the Talmud)
Just disappeared too.

But we wonder:

Might they actually have lived on,
Watching the journey from afar
But dying metaphorically
As their boychick took off for God?

Maybe the call
Came from Terah and Amatlai,
A pair of self-actualized parents,
Who urged their child on.

So Abram abandoned them,
For pastures greener than theirs,
Seeking opportunities without compare,
Rejecting stifling parental fear
For space to discover
The whens and wheres
Of his life’s new work,
His newest existential cares.

How Abram’s parents felt
We never explore
Although their kid walked out the door
On a journey the parents might even abhor.
On a journey God commanded.

Were they quiet?
Did they cry?
Were they angry?
Did they sigh?
Two parents left behind.

Did they think:

We bore him
And we fed him
We protected him
And we led him
To make choices on his own.

Maybe they tried to kvell
About his future in Canaan and Beit El,
Although their child now rebelled
At the way he was raised.

Or did they just wipe away a tear,
Smiling bravely, no despair,
Even send him off with great fanfare
On the journey of left behind.

Every lech l’chael
Go forth … to ….
Is also a journey mei
from ….

From your birthplace,
From your parents’ home,
From their values,
From their dreams …
Toward your own.

So celebrate Abram and Sarai,
And their nephew Lot,
And lots of others who joined the journey,
And don’t forget to praise
Their new monotheistic faith.

But never forget Terah and Amatlai,
Two parents
Who birthed a journeyman,
Two parents
Who ripped out their hearts
To still smile bravely
As their child went forth for God.

Those parents,
They too went
On a little journey
As they died
A little inside.

Commentary on the Spoken Word Poem

(Author’s Note: Try reading aloud the spoken-word poetry to better taste its rhythm and rhyme.)

Anyone who has been a child, and most of us who have been parents, are acutely aware when someone is called to depart from their parents’ home on a journey toward the future. Often bittersweet, sometimes quite painful, the journey away causes hearts simultaneously to sink and soar as we—or a beloved child—venture(s) off for a fresh start.

It might be traveling to a new location—out of state for a new job or out of the country on a new adventure. It might be a journey of self-discovery or a move toward emotional freedom, leaving the confines of the Gan Eden (garden paradise) of youth to blossom in lands of promise yet to be discovered. It might be an escape from a parent’s ideology or political outlook, a seeking of something more in line with heartfelt (or budding) values. Whether physical, emotional, or intellectual, our journeys call us to leave the comfort of home behind to venture forth into the unknown.

For parents, this journey by offspring is particularly poignant. Our hearts burst when offspring grow sufficiently to begin the next phase of life’s journey, creating a life for themselves that is separate from us. From the moment they began to talk and toilet themselves, walk and wonder about the world, we hope and pray that our children will strive and thrive.

And yet, simultaneously, parents cry a little inside as the journey we dreamt for our children necessarily leads to a tearing apart of the home and family we intentionally built up for them. Every Lech l’cha el … (Go forth to…) is also a journey mei… (from…).

Who might parents emulate as we seek to allow our children to venture forth?

Be like God on the sixth day, who gave humanity the keys to the world, making us a little lower than angels and allowing us to venture off to eat some fruit (Gen. 1:26-31, 2:16).

Be like God, in the Garden of Eden, who planted knowledge in the tree right there before us, so humanity could take hold of it, eating and fleeing from our home in Eden (Gen. 2:17).

Be like God who learned from Noach and Naamah and that ark adventure that for the world to be recreated, God couldn’t control and God shouldn’t destroy. Instead God placed a rainbow in the sky to remember to let humanity struggle, err, and rebuild (Gen. 9:12-17).

Parents are regularly commanded lech l’cha, “go forth,” on the next phase of the journey of parenting:
Sending them off,
Sending them smiles,
Suffering silently,
Still kvelling for our kids.

It’s not easy, this parenting. Although heartbreak comes easily.

Remember how Sarah’s heart was broken, when Isaac wandered off alone after the Akeidah to escape his father’s overbearing passions (Midrash Tanchuma, Vayeira 23:4-5; B’reishit Rabbah 58:5).

Remember how Jacob was confounded, watching his children make dangerous choices that astounded him (Gen. 37:11).

Remember how Rachel died in childbirth, never having to fully face the misfortune that her children would endure (Gen. 35:18).

Remember how Aaron suffered in silence after his boys Nadab and Abihu went off on their own—and suffered tragic consequences (Lev. 10:3).

Parenthood is a going toward and a leaving behind. We draw close as we raise children, nurture, and dream, worry and wonder, hope and pray, until the day comes when they necessarily go off on their own, leaving us behind. It is the way of the world. It is the burden of parents. So we kvell. And maybe we die a little inside.

No one knows what happened to Abram’s mother Amatlai after Abram left. No one knows what Abram’s father Terah thought about this whole monotheistic enterprise before he died.

But we do know this:

We are all—parents and children—called to a higher purpose. Lech l’cha (L’chi lach, f.) means “journey onward.” To hold on even as we let go. To engage our families still, and support each other where possible, and love each other always. For Judaism deeply values mishpachah, “family,” the ties that bind, the strings that connect.

Even when loving and letting go causes us each to die a little inside.

 

originally posted at reformjudaism.org

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