Low Level Sadness, the Mourning Heart’s Guest

Low level sadness, under the surface Why do you taunt me so? Just let go of your fears Come as a flood of warm tears So I can finally just get up and go Low level sadness, why are you there? Why can’t you just let me be? I’ve got so much to do To accomplish without you Please just move out and let me go free. Low level sadness, under the surface How long will you reside in my head? My day seems just fine Until you intentionally redesign (it) Reminding me daddy is dead Low level sadness, I like you much better Than melancholy who once lived in my heart You’re not a bad guy But can’t you please go bye-bye So that I can enjoy a fresh start?! Low level sadness, I need you no longer I’m tired of denial and anger and regret As death’s stolen (some of) my thunder And my heart’s still torn asunder Do you think that I’d really forget? Isn’t a month quite enough, to feel all the stuff? Low level sadness, stop planting your seeds Be gone, let me go, I’m so done with this show What more does this mourner really need?   **Shloshim refers to the 30 days after the funeral when a mourner slowly expands the place within the community

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